Bitterness and Blessings
I’m still learning how to be a happy person. One of my biggest challenges is that I sit in the shadows of my mistakes. I’d like to embrace Ted Lasso’s great advice to “be a goldfish” and forget my mistakes, but sometimes the allure of bitterness is too much for my better nature. When I linger in negativity, I put up my defenses and point out to myself all the things that are wrong in the world, deflecting my responsibility. I have a psychic missile defense shield that intercepts any threat, real or perceived, and eliminates it with a laser of focused psychic energy before it can reach me. Theoretically it brings me protection from outside threats. In reality, it perpetuates violence because in a position of defense, everything begins to look like a threat and must be destroyed. Like I said, I’m still learning how to be happy. And how to communicate. A few months ago my wife began undergoing treatment for cancer and I became even more fully vested in protecting ...